Have you ever?

Have you ever shut the doors to the closet in the dark behind you? all the hung clothes hiding you? favorite doll in your arms and rocked it, I have. Have you never felt safe unless you could be trapped in a small space able to touch every surrounding in one little stretch , I bet. .You can sleep peacefully at night without a knife under the pillow sheets cover your face, swaddled. You feel hallow. Empty inside with sorrow, pain in your heart and you pray not to see tmrw! But yet tmrw comes and you feel the sun, yes it is a new day! For some reason you have hope again and you feel like life has began, for some reason you are still here, here you stand. So What's the plan? You ask yourself as he reaches for the belt that beats you time, again and again, this leather in his hand concreted against my skin... will I ever win? Dipped in hate and self-washed in love... at such a young age looking in the mirror who have I become? Just praying for a drop of love .... then it rains.