Healing

I feel so broken.
There is so much
I need to heal from
There is so much
wrong with me
all the bad I’ve done
What if I can never get it right? What if I’m broken for life?
What if I’m too broken to heal?
I am so ashamed
of what I’ve done.
These thoughts are too real, sometimes I just can’t deal.
Is my soul even real?
Am I the demon,
that needs to be killed?
I can no longer self medicate and isolate to deal.
This time I must feel to heal.
This time I must choose love over fear as YAH wills.
He says I am worth it
This time,
I must believe that is real.
Yah’s love in spirit and truth,
is the only way I can truly heal.