HEART OVERLOAD

This emptiness inside cannot be filled 
The absence of love is like a roadkill 
I've tried to substitute other activities 
In the place of intimacy 
But the void left in my heart has crippled me 

I longed to be loved, without the pain it brings 
I've always thought that 
Love was a body of compassion 
And a heart of understanding 

But I've only experienced the hypocrisy of love
A victim of manipulation and recipient of a false love

My heart has been broken time and time again 
But the need to be loved, keeps pulling me back in
Each time I start anew, my mind is convinced 
This time it will be better 
Only to be trapped again, like a wild animal 
Caught in hidden fetters

But a life without love is like a barren land 
Parched and cracked, emptied of its promises 
Like stagnant waters where everything dies
To live without love, is emotional suicide.

Wilford Barker.