Heavy thoughts, Heavy mind

A million words left unsaid.
A million thoughts piling in my head.
My tongue is weak.
From Lack of communication I truly seek.
Instead I just lay in my bed.
Thinking of different ways I can pound in my head.
Hoping my mind will stop racing,
But there's no one here to interrupt my pacing.
Back and forth, back and forth.
How much am I truly worth?
Never changing towards a different direction.
If only someone could show me a little affection.
Everyone's busy.
No one is around.
That's when I think the worst.
When will someone lift me from this curse?
I'm sitting next to you.
Can you see me?
You ignore me as if you can't even hear me.
I could hold my breath and you still wouldn't notice.
A limp body laying next to you
And you still could care less.
I'm not one to judge you,
But you could act like you give a shit.
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