hello goodbye.

So here i sit in silence,
The sound of the phone ringing,
People talking in conversation,
My head is so loud,
full of thoughts unknown,
i sit silently here on my own,
i don't know what it is about waiting,
that stirs emotions raw,
just want to run screaming though the exit door,
still i sit,
bravely facing this alone,
I'll hold my own hand,
stand strong while i wait,
Wishing my kids were here,
bringing smiles to my face,
hmm can't wait to go home,
and leave this place,
This silent space,
not long now,
next patient inline,
music plays softly in the background,
quiet soothing,
Relaxing actually,
my mind is starting to calm down,
watching cars driving past,
through the window from up high,
in a busy town we live,
hmm i need a whiskey,
for what i wouldn't give,
I'm suddenly nervous again,
the clock ticks on,
my phone is my pen,
watching the minutes past by,
flying birds within the sky,
waiting for the fate,
what's ment to be,
the hello the goodbye my ovary.