Him

It’s funny how when you love someone...
You can feel it deep within your being.
It’s almost as if, all the way down to the heel of your foot…
No matter what happens, good or bad…
You can always feel this ‘warmth.’

It’s been 11 years.
Waiting…
To let you, let me…
Love…

you.

I have learned to push these emotions aside.
But you know, when that person is near you…
Around you, mentioned in a conversation, or whispered in a dream…
The feelings resurface, unburying themselves.

But now we have crossed the line of being ‘just friends’…
And I am left wondering what exactly we are…
Baby, you know I have liked you...
Ever since I laid my blue eyes on you, when I was only age 7…

But now, after learning who you really are…
And getting the chance of exploring your heart…
I can say I have fell in love with your naked soul.

I know you are going through a very hard, unsettling time…
Losing someone who was close to you…
It is not an easy burden to bare.

I saw the hurt in your eyes…
Like shadows taking over…
What used to be, a sunny place.

I saw you, with my own windows…
I saw you space to the grey realm of sadness… (depression)
You didn’t catch my gaze…
But seemed to be searching for someone else’s… (Someone’s who you’ll never see again.)

But baby, even though your light is wavering…
Please don’t ever let it flicker out.

Keep yourself busy.
Keep faithfully working your job.
Keep seeing and being with your friends.

So whatever it takes to keep the fire burning…
Even if the coals are the only things glowing.

And so I will wait.

I will be a friend and be there for you when you call me.
Even if I have to wait 11 more years, or longer, I will.

It takes time to heal.
It takes time to grow.
This, I understand…
This is why I will not push...

You.

Patience will win this over.
Mountains do crumble…
And time moves everything at its own pace.
Maybe time doesn’t heal like they say, but it does scar.
You will not be wounded, bleeding forever.

So, My Love, even if life pulls us apart…
And we lose what we knew we had...
My heart will ever be with…

You.

And I will wait…
And I will be patient.

You are worth my stand.

                      (Please, want and wait for me too…)