Hopeless infatuation

I like it when you laugh,
I'm addicted to your smile,
I'll do anything to make you happy,
Just notice me once in a while. 

Your styled golden hair,
Your grassy coloured eyes,
Your manly sense of dressing,
...All give me butterflies.

When you throw those sassy one-liners,
And you watch for my reaction,
I can't blush or flirt back,
For you'll see that you're my distraction. 

I want you to see exactly how I feel,
But at the same time, I can't have you know,
I want to pour my heart out to you,
But I also don't want my emotions to show.

I'm too afraid of rejection,
As I have faced it twice before,
But there's so much I need from you,
Your touch...and so much more.

You've got me in a box,
And I have you written all over the walls inside my head,
But the wonderful thoughts of you can stay with me,
Rather than blowing around as gossip instead.

Please, I beg of you,
Show me a goddamn sign,
Give me a hint or something to hold on to,
That we can be more in time.

The weird thing that gets me,
Is you were right there all along,
And now all I want is you,
And I know in your arms is where I truly belong.