How do I end it without ending it?

I feel totally numb I have no feeling anymore,

It hurts to breath,

It feels like all I do is cry.

I hate when this feeling comes back.

I never know how long it’s going to last.

No one knows

They think I’m just an ordinary girl

But really I have been fighting these demons in my mind on and off since year 12

It comes and goes

And I never know when it’s going to come back.

All I know is it feels worse when it does come back,

How do I stop it?

How can I control it?

All I want to do is end it but I still want to live just not like this.

How do I come through the other end?

How do I end this pain without ending it…

-KLR