I sit alone

I sit quietly
Nothing is moving
And tha darkness
Is now drawing in
I am just a child
And I feel so alone
How could this
Not be frightening
I remember my dad telling me
How my mum got too ill
And sadly god took her
And now she is in heaven
He told me don’t be sad
She’s up there preparing
A place for us
He told me
That for me
She had so much love
But I do not understand
Why dad says do not be sad
Why he cries himself to sleep
Why he cannot talk to me
I know I am just a child
And I can’t hope to comprehend
But my dad is hanging silent
From the ceiling by the bed
Why did he it was OK to leave me
Alone in the dark
Did he not understand the selfish part
Of leaving me to join mum
Because of the pain
And to leaving suffering
Throughout my life again and again.