I am My Own Forever

i crave your presence 
but you are not what i need 
im captured by your essence 
but without you i am freed 

i fall into the trap of your ocean blue eyes 
 i unravel my feelings like thing of twine
like i have won a contest and you are my prize
but the ache in my heart tells me its time

as the clock never stops moving fast
the tears in my eyes give me a sign
you can never be anything other than my past
now i understand everything will be fine 

as the choice of you or nothing is hovering like a gun to my head
i come to the realization instead of you, i choose me instead.