I cant let go...

Im not fond of the idea that ill never be able to hold you in my arms & call you mine. My soul sobes for your attention & affection. My heart cries for your bitter sweet love. My mind wonders into a world of what'ifs. It all comes down to the love of a man , the memories you make together , the secrets you share with one another. Loving you was not a hard decision to make , it was quite simple. but its hard letting you go after all i know my love for you is real , you cant just walk away if its real. Youre the most realist thing thats happend to me , even though when nothing felt right and its as my soul had died , i never felt this much alive. All ive ever done was love you , with my heart and soul. And still it was not enough. I gave you my best and everything i could do , was done. Im not sad because i lost you , its just that theres so much i wanted to share with you , so much i wanted to show you. I have so much more love to give you. The day i lost you i lost the love of my life. I never loved someone this much to be quite honest. Loving you feels like a million questions were asked and all i could answer was your name , it felt as ive been home sick all my life and when i met you , i knew i was home. I knew i wanted to stay i knew that i was never going to stop loving you. And then just one day , i lost all of that , i lost you , the most important treasure i had. I cried for many months and i still do , i pretended it did not bother me but it did. Ive never had my heart broken like this befor , i never thought id lose my soul. Yes , when you left you took the good in me , you took my heart with you. You took every single piece of me. Still till this day i continue to love you , i cant let you go , i cant shake you , i dont want to , i dont want you to leave my imagination its the only thing thats Keeping me alive. The only thing that keeps me stable. I once saw a shooting star and i made a wish upon it , i wished for all my pain to go away. I realised that the solution to my pain was you , your presence , your touch , your love. I was so happy , now i cant even name one good thing in my life. I need you. I need us.....i need you to tell me that everything is going to be alright , i love you , i cant just shake you. I miss you every single day , wishing upon more stars just for you to come back to me and untill the day that , that happens , i promise i wont give up on you. I love you and i always will. Its always gonna be you.