I can't take your call

Awake for a minute, asleep for an hour
Energy flows through my veins like speed to an addict....for that minute
My bed becomes my best friend, my bed doesnt judge, it doesn't ask questions, or question my asks. 

I don't want to go for a walk, or meet with you today, I know I need to pay the bills, but I don't know how. My anxiety is crippling, my towels unaligned cripples me even more. 

I'm tired I can't do it right now, I'm tired I can't look. 

My bed is comforting, its there for me when I can't look anymore. It's there for me when everyone else thinks I'm busy. When I say I'm busy, I'm busy like a slow running train full of passengers, I'm busy like a rainshower caught up in a drifting cloud, I'm busy like a cars paint weathering in the sun that's been parked for eternity. 
I'm busy.

Awake for a minute, asleep for an hour
Energy flows through my veins like speed to an addict....for that minute
My bed becomes my best friend, my bed doesnt judge, it doesn't ask questions, or question my asks. 

Hi it's Lisa, I can't get to the phone right now but if you leave your name and number I will get right back to you. I can't get to the phone because I don't want to, I can't answer your call because I don't know what you have to say, please don't leave a message because that message means I have to do something, I have to be busy. I'm tired.

Awake for a minute, asleep for an hour
Energy flows through my veins like speed to an addict....for that minute
My bed becomes my best friend, my bed doesnt judge, it doesn't ask questions, or question my asks. 

Goodnight sleep well, can I sleep for ever? I'm too tired to be awake but I don't want to die. When I say I don't want to die I mean to say I don't want to exist for just as long as it takes for me to be awake. When I mean awake, I mean awake like a flying bird 🐦, I'm awake but I can't talk your call. 

Awake for a minute, asleep for an hour
Energy flows through my veins like speed to an addict....for that minute
My bed becomes my best friend, my bed doesnt judge, it doesn't ask questions, or question my asks