I commit gluttony.
Obesity,
How many years to kill oneself?Β
Gluttony,
Crisp packet after crisp packet, I'm in hell,Β
Flesh sweating,
Body swelling,
A scent of indulgent smell.
Slowly but surely, eating until I'm weak and content.
I look in the mirror, I see my faded youth, I hide behind being a single dad, that's the guilty truth,
I cry in my pillow, I'm 100% greedy proof, I whisper to myself, I'm a waste of life, while eyes judge,
My legs keep a tired body up, but my mam and dad always taught me to be toughΒ
The sad reality is, only I can change it, but emotionally I think I've given up.
I'm a creature of habit, what's wrong with me, I'm slowly dying, why can't I bloody see!Β
I'm a creature of habit, mentally I'm diseased, what's on my plate will never set me free!Β
I keep thinking, I've had a devil's kiss, I'm self loathing,
My future wasn't like this, I just feel sick and bloated.
This is not "a pitty me story"
I'm committing the sin of gluttony,Β
Sometimes I'm happy and smile,
Sometimes in the rain I stand and cry,
I want to change, not for the judging eyes,Β
I want to change for myself and a healthy mind.
Gluttony,
How many years to kill oneself?
Sorry,Β
Your heart,Β
Is beating,
To death.
Gluttony...
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I remember being called fat when I was a kid, by my friends. I took it to heart, starved myself and collapsed, I was only 14, it was difficult to accept, I went away, deep into my mind and developed coping mechanisms in times of stress. Now I feel liberated, I have a goal in life and I don't care what people think, I'm reading the power of now and I feeling much better.
You are a deep thinking human Wayne with loving characteristics that belong in this world, your weight is a representation of what you have to offer, sheer volume of understanding and greatness, it's time though to start loving yourself, forget the world for now, it will always be there, suffering away, change who you are and love you.Β
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I feel your pain and I hope I can share it, to dispers it and help you cope in this short life we have.Β
Sorry to here that Gerard, I feel for you, I'm glad you have found happiness in your life, thanks for sharing a part of you, your comment will help me figure things out, thank you βΊ?
Oh Wayne, I don't know if your struggling with this but my son did for sometime.Β I saw as little boy he became invisible to others.Β It was so sad.Β But I don't believe it's a sin.Β 7 deadliest sins is not in the word.Β It came from a Catholic origin and has changes with the times.Β Great write.Β Love a poem with lots of human feelings.Β God Bless...
Ah gluttony is common but as long as u don't look it and exercise you will be fine, you don't in the pic so cheer up. I like the way you express and your super poetry is what counts too. You write in an interesting way for sure. Thumbs up and keep writing.
Soo nice to read from your inking again, Pleez do review/comment/add your thoughts on my newest poem too.