I Couldn't Stay!
If you could access my afflicted mind
where every thought is darkly corrupted
and deadly despairing
To linger in this anguishing prison
would have you screaming for mercy
to be set free
Then you'd see
why I couldn't stay
You've been there with unconditional love
and aspirations for my wonderful future
How could you know you were in
competition with the Devil's tormentors'
of mental illness where intrusive thoughts
crash through my threadbare sanity,
stealing every ounce of rest and tell
me it will never be any different
Then you'd see
why I couldn't stay
To stay one more hour in
my twisted sick and terminally
hopeless head tower, held accountable
to guilt abyss and psychotic delusions
of harming others around me.
Where I see the solution in my
mentally ill deluded
brain as the safest answer for all
Then you'd see
Why I couldn't stay
My pain's now so great
I can't wait
Sorry it's too late
this is what I would have said
but I know you'll see it was the
best for all and me
You now see
I couldn't stay
Goodbye I love you all
You see
Let me Rest in Peace
(This is fictitious inspired by so many who
take their life while in the grip of mental illness)
May there be help for this terrible illness.
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Comments
Hi Wendy I felt this to my very core
while reading my thoughts are that Mental heath
is not recognized enough not enough money goes into
the care and time people desperately need
people with mental illness don`t always show on the
outside the screaming pain they feel inside
You wrote this poignantly from the perspective
of a mental health sufferer well done!
May being mental health month here in the U.K too
Excellent awareness poem Wendy. My respect
Best wishes Debs x
Thanks Debs this is a subject always close to my heart as I have battled depression since a child. Thankfully
I am so much better nowadays but sadly this was inspired by a young man in my town who jumped off a
bridge. He was 24 and so handsome you would have thought he had the world at his feet. I didn't know him
personally but this poem came to me. Yes it is an awful misunderstood illness. I didn't realise May was mental health month . Hugs x
I understand Wendy i have had depression and anxiety
since a teenager on and off, I also have agoraphobia
to a varying degree. My last but one poem was of a man
a well thought of happy go lucky person who seemed to not have
a care in the world and was so loved yet he took his life
No one saw the turmoil he must have been going through
So so sad
Hugs to you my friend x
Yes Debs people often keep it hidden until it's too late to help so sad x
Hi Wendy, I'm just browsing through your poems, I really enjoy reading your thoughts, I like this poem, it's sadness and tradagey, but most of all I like how you have allowed yourself into a dark place, just for a while I hope, to write this piece, it must have been hard to escape.
Thanks Gerard yes thankfully I'm not in this place but was inspired by a young man in my town who I didn't
know but jumped off a bridge at 24 just so sad