i feel like im going crazy

I feel like I'm going crazy inside of my on head, wanting to scream wanting to shout and yell. Doing drugs caught my attention of becoming my own addict with a crave of inflating. Furstration,  crazy addiction,  my life is becoming a waste to drugs that I catch with the senses of smell and taste in my mind.  This thing, places,  this reaction is causing me to have a relapsed over and over... Trying to control but the anger and rage takes over with its powerful addict controls... Hitting, punching, pushing and laughing at the person who  tries there best to help you...