i hate hiding when im scared

i hate hiding when im scared
i would like to go fight back

but than i hear him

scream, yell angry

and i shrink imediatly

my eyes start to water

they pour heavier than rain

if only i could be a bit stronger

than i wouldn't fear my dad 

i hate being picked on

and being laught at

but i just keep standing out

tho im more quiet then a mouse

im still being picked on in my house

if only i could be a bit braver

maybe than i would fight back

but again i cant kill fear

and i cant talk back to my dad

when he calls us women

i start crying in my mind

i dont know what im yet

but he makes me feel like an idiot

i shaved my head i threw out clothes 

hoping to look more like both

but still he calls me a woman

tho im still a child

every time i hear those words

it really makes me want to cry

i hate when i cant fight back

especially to my dad

if only i could be a bit stronger

maybe i could protect

those whom i love 

those whom he breaks