I have a lot to be thankful for

I have a lot to be thankful for

I look back over the last year there was not absolutely not hardly anything to be thankful for
I almost died lost all my friends  lost my mind lost my home got kicked out the door
I know life is not about having fun in money
But my heart's been broken this year more than once  I’m alone I have no honey
Electricity is turned off I living in an abandoned house
Full of rats bugs and one ugly mouse
No running water so no showers and toilets stinks they full of crap
What do I have to be thankful for just to stay alive I have to look for scrap
I can't go sit down and watch some football games today
I stink too bad and they just kick me out anyway
It been years since I've had turkey gravy mashed potatoes sweet potatoes green bean casserole pie
So I sit here feeling sorry and I just want to cry
My head starts to spin I feel really dizzy and I fall to the floor
I wake up an angel smiles on me
Do you really believe she said that you have nothing to be thankful for let's see
What about all of these and she shows me pictures of my two kids they're twins a girl and a boy
She takes me to a hospital for kids that were terminal they have nothing not even a toy
The looks on their faces were so sad
Why is this then I got mad
Aren't you thankful that your kids are healthy and wise
Look at those pants can you sit here and surmise
The pain and anguish they have to go through on this day
No I never thought of it that way
Then all of a sudden we’re in a city that have been destroyed fires was still raging today
She looked at me and said this is in a city not too far away 
All of a sudden I heard a very loud explosion and part of a building collapsed
A mother screamed for her daughter who just died maybe I overstated myself perhaps
The angel looked at me with very sad eyes you still alive
Can you smile can you eat does your mind work can you count to five
 We we’re in a building with a lot of rooms and doctors and nurses and people that lost their mind
What’s up nurse hitting a client because he was peeing on the floor she wasn't very kind
I saw one guy that was counting sheep on the wall but you can get past three
Then a young lady came up to me and asked me if I wanted to ride on her reindeer for free
She said she was waiting for Santa to come take her away
The angel looked at me so do you really think you have nothing to be thankful for
When the lights went out and I was back in my empty house saw the shattered windows and missing doors
I began to jump up and down and I yelled  I understand
Thank you Lord for now I am your biggest fan
Thank you for showing me I have a lot to be thankful for
I will not ever feel sorry for myself anymore