I know this ache, this heartbreak

How many times can your heartbreak
How many times must I feel this ache
Like an old friend we are well acquainted
Leaving big holes in my soul and life tainted
I sit here now crying real tears
And there is nothing that I can do
I look out the window and see a full moon
And I wonder what is the reason and truth
Behind the pain and the heartache we will go through
When endured far too much as it is.
As my tears drop on the worktop
I know I have to keep a grip
If I am to get through all this
And no matter if the sun shines
It will always be dark and raining
In a part of my heart.
Thinking of your bravery and of your strength
Will give me the resolve on the end
I wish I could be as brave as you
I wish I could be as inspiring that is the truth
For you are amazing
And no one can hold a candle to you.
How can we lose you
How can we bear this heartache in truth.
My tears now flow freely 
And I can’t bear to think
There nothing that I can do
Impotent and powerless to change what’s to come
I feel the need just to hold you
To shelter, you to protect, you from harm
And tell the universe the stars and moon
That they cannot have you
But I know the truth
There is nothing I can do
And so many will mourn you and miss you
And in your short life 
You would achieved so much more than mine
So I salute you
And bow down to you
As my heart breaks and tears fall from my eyes
But for now it’s goodnight
But not yet for the last time
And as I say goodnight I know the tears that blind
My vision will never go away
Or the pain ever assuage
My heart will never heal again
But even when your far away
My love will be right there with you
Just know that I will always love you
And always think of you
No matter how much time will pass
Because I love you
And I will miss you
And that’s the sad heartbreaking truth
Just know that I love you.