I know what I want

I know I want this
I know what I want

Even if the universe has dictated a different life

I know I want this

No matter the obstacles

No matter the hardships

I know the life I wanna live

And I'm gonna fight tooth and nail for it

I don't care about destiny

I don't care about destiny

If I did, I'd know I was unlovable

I would know that relationship happiness isn't in my cards

I would know life had a royal flush and there was nothing I could do

I would know I was destined to be alone forever

I would know no matter what people say I'm just another guy

I would know I'm nothing special

I would know I'm unlovable

I would know I can't do anything right

I would know I'm unlovable

I would know I'm bound to lose anything good I have

I would know I'm unlovable

I would know I was hopeless in my one true dream

I would know I'm unlovable

But I don't care about destiny

Destiny isn't what I want

I know what I want

I want a family, spouse and kids

I want walks on the beach

I want romantic dates at fancy restaurants

I want holding hands reaching for popcorn

I want star gazing, cloud naming, and just being together under the sky

I want a cuddle buddy infront of a fireplace

I want what I just can't have

What destiny didn't decide for me

I want what the world denies me

I want something you can't get when you're unlovable

And maybe I am just unlovable

Maybe no one can see me as their one

Maybe I'm always bound to be a two or worse

Maybe I'm bound to never live the life I want

But that won't stop me from trying

Every day I will look for the one who not only completes me but I complete

Maybe I'll get stuck trying to complete someone who completes me

Maybe I'll get stuck for a long time

Maybe I'll get stuck but not wanna leave

But one day I'll find that one

I know I will because I don't care about destiny

Destiny isn't me

I am me and only I can live my life

I am me and only I can live my dream

I'm probably unlovable

I'm probably destined to fail

But I don't care about destiny

I know what I want

And I want to be the unlovable guy

The unlovable guy who changed his destiny

The unlovable guy who married an amazing person

The unlovable guy who had kids who he loved unconditionally

The unlovable guy who might have a 9-5 job but is happy because he has his dream already back home

I guess I'm an unlovable guy

No one wants me

But that won't stop me from trying

I know what I want

And I don't care about destiny

I want my life