I lust you

I love you baby , your beautiful to me, I will do any and everything to spend with you eternity, the way that you touch me the way I'm kissed the way that you yell and play the blame game when your pissed you continue to  taunt me bout how much you miss me this this and this   who could ever tell that I was going through hell, who could ever tell babe , Do I hide it well? Good morning Beautiful sounds so nice coming from your lips the cuddles that I loved so much have some how turned into memories that I just don't wanna touch, I don't wanna feel this way I want all this pain to just fade away like the clouds that move so fast just to take the grey away I live in past and continue to dwell this pain THAT I feel oh yeah it's Definitly something real  yet i continue to deal it's lies and the betrail that I continue to derail laying there thinking that I was on the wrong path making me feel as though iv been the weirdo for this long these demons that I continue to face are the bad memories  that i just cant erase yet it be so easy for you to be replaced ,how much of your disgrace you make me feel small so then I put up a wall and now words of hate have built me up tall now excuse me  while I walk this path that my creator has laid down for me while you continue to sit back and believe that you were SO RIGHT  for me , you were there for me right ALWAYS TRYING TO PICK A FIGHT  you were my lesson  iv learned I will never leave a bad relationship unturned I'm continue to build and HEAL AND MEND ,  I KNOW NOW WHO I CAN COUNT ON AND IM MY ONLY FREIND, everything iv discovered and all my abilities brought me out stronger ,stronger then I used to be NoW it's time to Create a new me and write a new story the way things should be.