I need you!

You left me wondering,
when you left,
all sudden,
without a word.
I cried,
to lighten me,
but it all didn't work,
I left scattered.
I smiled,
in front of everyone,
to show that I am fine,
but I wasn't.
I laughed,
I joked,
all the time,
to show I am fine.
Your words,
your hugs, 
you being with me,
has become a memory of my life.
I tried to remove you,
from my heart,
tried to forget you,
I tried.
I wish,
I could close your chapter in my life,
but I couldn't,
I just couldn't.