I never got to thank you

I've been been up for almost 2 days straight 
See that I'm going through it 

 

My poetry spewing out 

Emotions like  

it's bipolar all over the place 

 

I want to post stuff then 

I don't want to leave it up 

 

Like I know what it looks like 

 

But then I want to have an

 

expression of self

 

It's all I've had the past

 

13 days in this room now 

 

But I'm okay

 

I am 

 

I'm alright

 

I'll come out when I actually need to 

 

I don't feel the need to leave it tonight

 

But I think this is where I found acceptance 

 

I went through a lot 

 

And I'm just comfortable in it 

 

Think I there no need to leave no reason to believe but it's alright  

 

God I hate it

 

when we fight 

 

Because I know she loves me 

 

And she shows me patience 

 

And I love feeling that 

 

It's just I always

feel like all I cause are

these things

 

  bad things 

 

She sent me this

 

when we were

 

Going through it 

 

And I needed that from her 

 

 

 

In the worse kind of way

 

Something that said anything 

 

That means she knows my acceptance  

 

Damn it

 

 she knows to

 

 she knows i've changed

 

She sees it in me 

 

And she's right I have I know I am 

 

Like I said I went through something

 

In this room 

 

She knows it to  

 

I meant that I accept that 

 

I'm nothing to noone 

 

And Im Only bad for you 

 

And that my entire existence. 

 

Abostioey nothing

 

I ain't worth even fucking knowing 

 

I mean accept

 

like i'm absolutely nothing 

 

 and I accept that 

 

She responded back with a response back when she says 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(L.S.)

"Accept this. 

 

You're everything to someone,

 

You're everything to me

 

Your words consume me,

 

They things you say,

 

The things you feel,

 

They touch people's souls

 

Your share your pain with others 

 

Who need to know they're not alone.

 

Please don't stop expressing,

 

Processing,

 

Don't give up.

 

Accept that.

 

Accept this.

 

You are truly loved 

 

You are my world

 

And i your sunset

 

Meant to be for always

 

I will hold your hand and you can share with me forever

 

I want all of you for infinity 

 

Your love

 

Your words

 

You ups and downs

 

Your Highs and lows

 

Your kindness 

 

And your truth.

 

You are my positive and my happy

 

My heart and my soul

 

You're my everything. 

 

Accept that." 

 

 

 

And I was taken back

 

I needed that

 

I'm not sure I ever really expressed 

 

To her how much that meant and that I needed that 

 

Cuz I went 13 days in that room 

 

I was going through something 

 

And it changed me and she knows it to

 

So thank you for that

 

I love you baby I needed that

 

I keep a photo full of stuff like that  

 

So I can have it to look at 

 

I'm sorry for everything 

 

That I'm going through 

 

You don't deserve that

 

 to have to go through it to

 

 that makes me feel so bad 

 

I don't want to bring it back to you

 

So that's why you see my poetry 

 

spews emotions all over the place 

 

Like it's bi polar try not to judge me too bad.

 

I've been going through it 

 

I'm feeling bad as bad as I could feel bad 

 

And I had to come to terms and accept facts

 

That were hard pills to swallow 

 

And then she reminds me I'm not alone 

 

Of how much she loves me

 

To accept that she always will 

 

And I believe it to be fact

 

She'll always love me I accept that

 

 

 

 

 

( I love you so much baby thank you so much for leaving that for me I cherish things like that that you give me! I put everything in there and I'll try to remember that it's there sometimes for when I tend to forgeto forget but I'm not completely nothing I got somebody who wants me and loves me in their life and honestly that's how it's got really care about I just want you by myself I don't care about nothing else! Just I love you more than you ever know!)
 

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