I pray for disorder
It is amid the night when I kneel at the foot of my bed,
When I whisper to God all the things left unsaid,
With all my love and my pain,
With all my loss and my gain-
It is then that I pray for disorder.
'
The cold hands of a sinner are sewed together with good intents,
My voice is quietly shaking as my body repents,
To God I admit every flaw,
Every misdeed my eyes saw-
As I start to pray for disorder
'
A faith that abandoned me delivered me to the hands of hell,
Their chorus of angels begin to sound like a funeral bell,
Their perfection is silent,
And my descent is violent-
While i pray for disorder.
'
I tore the curtains from the windows and the sheets from the bed,
Cut a hole in my reality and from that wound I bled,
Kicking and screaming,
Sleep without dreaming-
I begin to shape my disorder.
'
My hands wrote a book and tore the pages from the spine,
My chaos grows and grows as the words do entwine,
Like a fire it spits and burns,
And like a beast it yearns-
As I rejoice in my disorder.
'
I feel the ache in my heart as my lips arch into a prayer,
This time I pray that there is a God, somewhere up there,
Who watches me devastate,
And lies silently in await-
For the day I stop praying for disorder.
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Comments
Hell of a write this and very relatable
Thank you so much Lost :)
"Because I can't hit bottom, I can't be saved." Chuck Palahniuk. Some nights are like that
This is such a compelling write.....FILLED with the uniqueness of complete originality.....with a suspension of disbelief driving it forward and cementing into the minds eye of your reader!!.....The hand of a naturally born writer!!.....well conceived and BEAUTIFULLY delivered!!.......ALL STARS!!......smokin' grooves HOPE!!......LOVE and ROCKETS!!.....T xo ?☀✴✳
Thank you so much, Tony, what a lovely review :)
This is beautifully written :) x
thank you so much xx
Absolutely astounding, surprised this wasn't nominated honestly... What raw emotion you have managed to portray, just beautiful xx - Lorrie
Thank you so much Lorrie :)
Quality
Thank you :)
Excellent poem
Thank you Syd :)
This is such beautiful imagery... incredible, 5 stars
Thank you so much Devanne :)
Dear Hope I have read all your poems and I just have to say what a truely amazing talent you have. I am honestly jealous that I could not write like you. Keep writing as I wonder what jewels are still to come xx
Thank you so much Wendy, that honestly means the world to me x
hey, Hope, this is a very compelling and thoughtful write, love the places you go, you're a highly creative poet with an interesting fresh perspective, I haven't read all the 'noms' this month but this one stands out, it would be one of my choices if I had a poetry site, good luck have great day poet
Thank you so much Christopher, the support means an incredible amount to me :)