I survived...
*I think this is a reality for some women who finally find the strength to live free xx*
I survived...
You made me believe it was all my faultÂ
Even at times when the beatings had stopped
I wrote so many "im sorry" letters
I carried too many pressuresÂ
I survived your many lies
You begged me to cry
You pulled my hair
I tried to shade the bruisingÂ
You didn't even care
You just whispered "you're losing"Â
I stumbled because I was blindÂ
But in the end, my life I survived
You thought you had power
But I seen you as a coward
Every drunken night my heart was in pieces
Every drunken fight I said I was fucking leavingÂ
My life you effortlessly stolenÂ
Instead I seen you as broken
When I washed my hands of my blood
I told myself you're just misunderstoodÂ
Tomorrow will be a different dayÂ
He won't give me the same horrible painÂ
I locked myself in the wardrobeÂ
I had 999 on my mobile phoneÂ
I was so scared of moving on
My happy self was lost and goneÂ
I dreamt of being so strongÂ
In the dark I was very wrongÂ
I was powerless in your preying eyesÂ
You hit me with bottles night after nightÂ
In the mirror I questioned my fearsÂ
And it was the voice of you in my earsÂ
In my lonely nights I heard my screams echo that my scars were realÂ
Jesus Christ how can all of this be real as my heart reminds me I can't feelÂ
Was this the way it was going to be?
Was this my horrific tortured destiny?
HELL NO!!
I still had my soul
A tear shed for me instead of you
I had to let go
You were a monster in my eyes
I climbed from the bottomÂ
I pushed that red buttonÂ
Alert!Â
Alert!Â
Here stands a woman who is now free
No more tears I cry for this ugly beast
Through all of this i can still dream
A monster I survived
I've changed in my lifeÂ
I survivedÂ
Thank God I survived....
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Comments
Amazing that youâve told an entire story of an awful relationship so heartbreakingly well in this poem. Although I feel your pain, I enjoyed reading this. Congratulations on breaking free, I hope you live your life to the max and enjoy every second. God knows you deserve it?Â
Lots of love,
Kate x
*to all the women who have suffered this way!*
Wow! Thanks so much Katie, very much appreciated, I couldn't get this image out my head of women that struggle this way and get treat the way they sometimes do, it's awful, thanks again ?Â
Hello Wayne...
Real and probably makes a lot of single women glad they're single...
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Great write!
Thank you for sharing...
Hugs...
sparrowsong
Thank you sparrowsong, very much appreciate your comment ?
I just read this ALOUD!!..... to people in my home.'....I am proud to say......." Wayne Stubbs"..... is a friend of mine...... and without Cherie Sumner and mutual friends..... listening to your words here and now..... in this group setting...... it would be 'more than difficult' to admit to myself... or others around me.... that I belong here.... on COSMOFUNNEL ......as an honest contributor to the proliferation of modern poetry..... in and of its own self worthiness..... and potential contribution to what we ALL pray will not be forgotten in the years to come.... In my own and my love's (Cherie's) heart..... we honestly believe that one day in the future what we do here will matter to the continued support of the dynamic of modern poetry itself...... hugs-n-kisses......Tony & Cherie!!....... your friends and ever-admirers!! â„â„âłâł??
Wow! What an unbelievable comment Tony and Cherie, this has made me so proud to think my words make a difference to even a hand full of people, or even make them feel in this way, you are so supportive Tony in what you say about my work, I can't thank you enough, honestly! This is from the bottom of my heart, you and others on here have made me believe that I belong âź?
Thanks for reading beautiful people, let's spread awareness ?
I very âreal timeâ write. Sounds as if itâs going on now. Excellent insight Wayne. A scary subject and much more common than we realize.
well done.
john
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Yeah, you're very right John, thanks very much for that, very much appreciated, it is a strong subject and one that needs to be tackled as far too many people are a victim of this, once again thank you ?
A wonderful poem hun x
Thank you ?