I Woke up to a Text

   One day 12 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "He thinks you're gorgeous and I swear he said he could see a future with you." 

     That day he texted me with all the curiosity and imagination in the world of what we could be and said, "Hey." Butterflies took over my stomach and suddenly saying the daily said "Hey" back to him was the most nerve-racking text of my life. He replied saying how badly he wanted to get to know me, and I believed him 

   One day 11 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "I can't wait to spend the day with you." 

     That day he picked me up with a bouquet of my favorite flowers, came to my front step, walked me to the car, opened the door for me and looked me in the eyes to say, "I love you" for the first time, and I believed him 

   One day 10 months ago I woke up to a text that  said, "Good Morning, how'd my girl sleep? I'm picking you up at 7 o'clock tonight. Dress nice!"

      That day I went out and bought a new outfit with all the excitement my body could possibly contain for him to see me in it. When he picked me up he came to the door, shook my dads hand and then grabbed mine to escort me to the car while nerves shot through my body as he took me to meet his family for the first time, "They're gonna love you, but not as much as I love you," he said, and I believed him 

   One day 9 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "Check your car, and hurry, the ice in your coffee might melt. Let's get ice cream later?"

     That day he memorized the simplest thing about me, my ice cream order- chocolate with peanut butter sauce on top. He said he had memorized more things about me, things that were a lot deeper than my ice cream order. Like the way I bit my nails when I was nervous, and how I never wore a seatbelt when I drove because a seatbelt was what killed my best friend. He said he loved all of that about me, and I believed him 

   One day 8 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "I can't wait to get home from vacation and see you, I miss you so much" 

     That day he face timed me while he was supposed to be on the beach with his family. He told me how he would rather be at home in the crappy Ohio weather than on a beach 700 miles away from me, and I believed him 

   One day 7 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "I had a great time last night... I love you, I hope last night proved that"

     That day I went shopping for myself and ended up buying three shirts, all in different shades of blue to match his eyes. I went to his house and surprised him and he said, "Thank you so much!" He told me how much he appreciated me, and I believed him 

   One day 6 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "We've officially been dating for 6 months, where has the time gone?! I love you, can't wait to see you today" 

     That day I got ready with a smile on my face thinking about going to a baseball game I was so excited for. We laughed and sang the whole car ride there. When we got there we realized we forgot to bring cash, which resulted in us turning around to go home. I cried because I thought it was my fault and he held me and told me it wasn't but it was his and he was sorry, and I believed him 

   One day 5 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "Can we talk? I'll pick you up." 

     That day I didn't eat because I knew it wouldn't be a good talk. He picked me up and at a stop sign looked me in the eyes and said, "I don't think this is working anymore." I asked what I did wrong and he told me he just needed to figure himself out and that he loved me, and I believed him 

   One day 4 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "Gm" 

     That day I didn't text back saying good morning, but instead just said "Morning." It wasn't a good morning and I refused to say good morning if I didn't mean it. He replied that he wanted to see me but didn't have time lately and promised that we would see each other soon, and I believed him 

   One day 3 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "I'm so sorry" 

     That day I turned my phone off and sat in the shower with the water pouring on my face until the water got cold and was too cold to handle anymore. I turned my phone on to a text from him telling me he would always love me, and I believed him 

   One day 2 months ago I woke up to a text that said, "Please talk to me..."

     That day I told him I had nothing left to say to him because the only thing my body contained anymore was pain. He said he was sorry and that things would get better, and I believed him 

   One day a month ago I woke up to a text that said, "We have to stop this." 

     That day I stayed in bed all day and I cried, ignoring any text or phone call he sent until I fell asleep. I woke up to him getting in my bed and holding me, he told me he was always going to be there, and I believed him

   Today I woke up to no text from him at all 

     Today I went to a party and I sat in a corner because the owner of the home had the occupation him and I both wanted for ourselves and the house I was in was everything I saw when I looked at him, but he wasn't there. He told me he loved me and he told me he would stay, and I shouldn't have believed him.