I wonder...

I wonder a million things 
But, the one thing lingers 
And won’t go away 
Is 
What could I have done different? 
Was there anything to do different ? 
Was it really just you that pushed me away 
Or was it my over powering love that 
For some reason, I couldn’t control when it came to you.
You gave me the light of day.
You had a charm about you I’d never seen in anyone 
It was blissful
You were humble , tender , gentle 
Everything I could imagine in someone was right in front of me 

Your smile lit up my soul, 
Almost as if I could feel it fluttering , trying to get out of my body, and into yours. 
Which , it might’ve ... 
My friends say “fuck him you can do better” 
But , I’m not sure that I can 
Or even as much as simply “forget” about you.
Because you... 
are part of me ?