I Won't Let You Drown

My friend once asked me if I could explain,

how it feels to be depressed.

I nodded my head and started racking my brain

and tried to ignore the pain in my chest.

After a while of thinking I couldn’t think of a thing,

and I started to feel like crap.

I mean how could something so little pack so much sting

and make me want to snap?

I sat on my bed.

Didn’t do a thing just sat.

Stared straight ahead

and tried to ignore that stupid feeling that kept coming back.

Suddenly it came to me,

just out of the blue.

I knew how to make her see,

I knew just what to do.

I said to her suddenly, I’m a broken music box,

and she looked at me confused.

I’m a favorite old toy. But one that no longer talks

I am shy and broken and bruised.

I’m a puzzle with a missing piece

Sitting there unfinished on the floor.

Until the day my child decides to find my missing link and give me some sort of peace.

But until then. I am just a worthless puzzle. Nothing less and nothing more.

It feels like there’s a storm cloud,

Raging above my head all of the time.

Sometimes it will leave and I can be happy and I can be proud.

Then it comes back seconds later. and I’m left with only dark skies.

So here I am. Like I’m a stick caught in the mud

Stuck out in the middle of the sea,

Crying salty tears of blood.

and I let the waves crash down over me.

I want so bad for it to be over.

I don’t know why I’m hangin on.

As I feel the walls coming in on me they’re getting closer.

But suddenly I feel something inside me growing strong.

A hand reaching out to me through the deep and dark abyss.

and it pulls me back into the light.

Once I open my eyes I realize. There’s a reason I exist.

God didn’t put me on this earth if he didn’t think I could win this fight.

But if you chose now to give you there’s so much you will miss.

Come on. get up! I know you’ve got the grit.

So, I know you’ve probably already heard this.

Probably a million times, trust me I get it!

But open your eyes love. C’mon, just look around.

There are so many people out there. Including me,

Who would never let you drown.