If I were...
I spend a lot of time just lately
looking in my purse,
and moving things aboutÂ
without an aim.
I take my phone out, stare at itÂ
and fiddle with the keys,
then go to look back in my purse again....
I take my diary out and turn the pages one by one
and then pretend to smile at some thing seen.
And if I have a pen to hand, Iâll scribble something quick,
then take a sip again of cold caffeine.
I wish I were a child again,
without  the nerves and fear.
Iâd find it easier I think.
Instead of sitting, shaking hereÂ
My friends all think Iâm confident!
truth is itâs really hard,
whenever meeting people newÂ
I go through this facade .
The people to the left of me are talking
in a crowdÂ
The ones all sitting on my rightÂ
are  laughing ...very loud
Iâm in the middleÂ
on my own
and wish tonight would end.
If I were just a kid again
Iâd ask them  âbe my friend?â
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Oh there is a poetry God! And welcome back Lodigiana and what a way to return in such vivid and warmly welcomed poetry style as well.
Sublime and superb writing on being that cool and self esteemed projection of who we really deep down perhaps yearn and really want to be and stay.
But never do for life's not like that or that easy.
But we can all wish and wish hard.
It is always a joy to read you my friend.
I hope all is well with you and those around you also and a warmly and deeply appreciated welcome back.X.Â
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Thank you so much Shaun! It has been a while and I have so missed not writing, but what with moving house any day, family health problems and other commitments too many to mention I had to take  a break..but hopefully will find more time to get back to my passion once again. I now will need more hours than there are in the day to catch up on my poetry reading but I will! Missed all you guys and your wonderful musings. Xx
Lodigiana whatever the reason's that's all part of this thing we call life.
And it all comes good perhaps slowly but at least moves in the right direction positively and assuredly.
And one step at a time and poem too for that matter.
And just in case you didn't catch it from me first time and also now by the looks of it good Greg's comment... WELCOME BACK!!! Xx.
Sage words of advice  my friend! Thank you so much â¤ď¸
welcome back Lodigiana
wonderful poem dontÂ
we all wish we were kids agin
Thank you so much Greg! All I need now is a little inspiration to kick in!Â
I visualised this entire scene as I read.Â
Fabulous write.Â
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Thank you so much Punzy! I think there are many of us who often  feel this way when in new Company...we pretend to be busy  looking in bags, playing with our phone..in fact doing anything to not make it look as though we are feeling a little âleft outâ..I spoke about this recently to my sister who is super cool and confident and she admitted she feels this  way too  and does exactly the same ...I would never have guessed!
wonderful write lodigiana!.......................................................................Jim
Thank you kind sir! x
Hello & Good mane Lodigiana,
As something of a newbie here, I was very recently encouraged by a mutual friend to seek you out and consider some of your poetic works ... and now I feel obliged to say, this introduction to them, was exactly that ..Â
I am indeed impressed and fully intend to embark upon a long journey of such seeking ..
All Good Things,
Neville :)
Hello Neville and welcome! How kind of your friend to steer you my way ,so to speak! I have been away for a while but now looking forward to reading lots and writing more than I have for a while.Really appreciate your kind words and look forward to continuing on the wonderful journey that Cosmofunnel  is! x
Hello Lodigiana, my pleasure entirely and thank you for the welcome, I am beginning to feel more at home :) x
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