I’m not an alcoholic

I’m not an alcoholic it’s just sometimes I like the burning feeling that flows down my throat 

You know that feeling with soda when it has to much acid

I’m not an alcoholic I just like to forget things sometimes because my harsh reality is to much to bare

The things I see on an everyday day basis make me want to just forget because it’s to sad to remember 

I’m not an alcoholic finishing four or five bottles a day doesn’t mean I have a problem it just mean that I need to get bigger bottles 

Having a midnight drink helps me sleep and that  day time drink helps me think 
I can’t forget about the afternoon drink because that’s the most important 
it helps me decipher the real world from the virtuality 

I’m not an alcoholic those few drinks that I take doesn’t make me lose control it helps me keep control of mind slowly weltering 
 
Sometimes my thoughts take control of my body and makes me forget that I walk on egg shells to fight my underlying issues 

I’m not an alcoholic it’s just sometimes I need to feel that burning sensation down my throat to remind me that I’m still alive 

I’m not an alcoholic just because I can’t go a day without my sweet nectar doesn’t mean that I have a problem it just means that my thirst is never quenched

Having my best friend by my side is the best thing for me because without her flavorful taste how could I face my demons that hunt me at night

Sometimes I look in the mirror and say to my self I’m not an alcoholic so that I wouldn’t give up the only thing that makes me feel whole 

So I’m not an alcoholic because the only thing that keeps me from jumping of that I95 bridge is the reminder that I have my ”friend”waiting for me at home