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I'm not good enough

I'm not good enough

Why do I feel that I'm not good enough, that this world is so hard and so so tough. Some days I open my eyes, scared that my family and friends will see through my lies. They ask "you ok I hope", I reply yes but just keep seeing that noose in the rope. Why can't I talk and tell them how I feel, the pain the sadness it's all to real. It grows bigger and bigger every single day, like an evil entity within me it's there to stay. How can I talk to the people who care, can't be this burden I'll frighten and scare. I can't do that to the people I love, please please God send me some help on the wings of a dove. I'm a failure to the people who knew me so strong, how can I be so messed up so useless so wrong. Don't want to go asleep at night, knowing I have to wake up to feelings that cause me such fright. Can't take anymore of living this way, I'm not good enough for this world where I cannot stay. I scream I shout I yell, to whoever brought me this hell. This entity has come and it's broken me down, as I lay in the water the final seconds as I feel myself drown. Darkness consumes me all around, peace at last I've finally drowned.

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Icarus Flocke

i felt, related to, and admired this through and through.
bravo 

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Ste Gill

Thankyou so many people are trapped within their own issues and thought's they can't find the words to get themselves out of the dark place they are in

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Icarus Flocke

agreed sir. and I am one who is sometimes guilty of
that very thing im ashamed to say. 

I am bi-polar, and a recovering alcoholic.

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Ste Gill

We all have our demon's to deal with, and we all have our own version on how to deal with it, never be ashamed of your battle for you are still here facing it regardless of how many drinks you have to try and soften the fear inside, stay strong and always be you

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