I'm Not Who You Want Me To Be

I think it's time I spoke my mind
To push aside the idea that I can be kind
I'm a mess and I am not
But let me show you that I'm not a robot
I cry over little things in the corners of the dark
I get excited but I must hide the spark
That my eyes get when I feel
Because "god forbid" my emotions be real
I'm tired and suppressed
You might even say depressed
But I can still find it in me to laugh
And I smile on your behalf
When I feel like I'm just about to break
I put on a mask and cover the ache
That wells from deep inside my heart
In this game, I can no longer take part
I will laugh when I feel like
And I will cry whenever that mood may strike
I will get excited when I work out a plan
and I will celebrate excessively because I can
I'll be damned if I let another person stifle my mood
Because you think it may be crude
This is how it's going to be
And I don't care who will see
These are my emotions and this is my life
I will not continue to live in your strife