I'm Sorry
A struggle with mental health
I’m sorry mom but don't act surprised.
I said I want to die.
I’ve been hurting inside.
I’ve been screaming for help but it ended up only in my mind.Â
Please listen to me when I say I'm not fine.
Because sometimes I feel like it's about my time.
This isn't your fault it's all mine.
You're the only thing keeping me alive.
I'm thinking in my head why hasn't it been my time Â
The pain is overwhelming.
Quiet nights are deafening.
The panic is suffocating.
The anxiety is killing.
I’m hanging on by a single thread but I keep slipping and it keeps burning.
like the fire that was set in my head.
I’m sorry but I feel this is long overdue.Â
So please listen to me when I say I need to talk to you.
Because you might just end up with one less kid to say I love you to.
I don’t want to leave but I might just half to.
So please don't silence your kids, please listen to your them when they need to talk to you because
mental health is no joke no more kids need to fucking die.
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Powerful write of despair Grace, I hope it's just perspective and not a heart write. Depression and anxiety are killers ...most people suffer at various points in their lives. Hugs x
hoping for your peace! welcome to Cosmo! there is some solace here.......Jim
Hi Grace. This is one hell of a write. I hate that mental illness is difficult for some people to understand. It should be easy to understand...it is an illness, that is all there is to understand. It is not attention seeking. It is not complicated mind games. It is not laziness. It is not apathy. It is not bad behaviour. It is an illness. And it needs the right treatment ... which starts with being listened to. I hope your mother reads this poem. Can you leave it lying around where she will find it? Bless you... please keep writing. Writing definately helps x
Such an open write. Fiercely expressing the voice of so many forced to feel they must remain silent in their pain. Sending love and hugs your way. May you keep finding strength within you. I hope writing is helping ❤️
thank you so much and writing helps a lot I've been silent for around 5 years and I had to brake that silent one way or anotherÂ
I am so glad to hear that writing is helping. Your words will reach out to so many x Â
Hi Grace. I am a fourteen year old who has also and still does go through this same type of mental illness. I feel like I can relate to this poem so much. I can't talk to my parents about anything, and I don't have my mom around anymore because I attempted and she didn't want me anymore. This is such a powerful poem. The way the words flow and end in a rhyme, yet fit perfectly to the prior, makes it exceed its main message. I love this, keep writing x
Hi Grace,
I hope that you’re writing alleviates your pain and help you to overcome such terrible affliction. Wish you the best of luck. JoeÂ
Hi GraceÂ
welcome and I hope things are good, mental health is an awful thing to deal with. Your write certainly highlights this, dunno if it's personal or not but like Jim the lad says plenty of finds here globally so keep on writing girl we are all here for youÂ
hugs n kissesÂ
Keith
Wow, what an amazing and overwhelming write. I can see the flux of pouring emotions, I hope you feel a little better from this moment, I know from experience that sometimes venting in poems helps. Great write, keep up the brilliance!