In The Dark

It's been so dark lately
Trying to focus on the light has been a task
My sanity; I'm trying to hold a tight grasp
Not even understanding, or trying to
Rather just falling, not caring who's falling too
The smiles you see are fake, the laughs, the snikers
The fake excitement for mediocre parties and cheap liquor.
Fake hyping myself up, like I really want somebody
Or wanting someone to want me
Sometimes I barely recognize the reflection I see
Wanting to be, free
Still fearing what might be.
Feeling like life is in park
Waiting to get out the dark.