In The Dark

It's been so dark lately
Trying to focus on the light has been a task
My sanity; I'm trying to hold a tight grasp
Not even understanding, or trying to
Rather just falling, not caring who's falling too
The smiles you see are fake, the laughs, the snikers
The fake excitement for mediocre parties and cheap liquor.
Fake hyping myself up, like I really want somebody
Or wanting someone to want me
Sometimes I barely recognize the reflection I see
Like I didn't have enough issues before
Feeling like a failing parent is 10x's worst
The constant pressure to go back to work
Everyone else goes and comes in 
Dinner supposed to be done, and the house spick and span
At the same time find a job to contribute,
But nobody to watch the baby to make a interview
Gotta be teacher,doctor and chef
Still gotta put on my best face and show my child nothing less
Cause it's not his stress
None the less still waiting to make my next move
Where's the light
I'm waiting on you.