Inmate 7668684

“The first week out , anytime someone would touch me I flinched, jumped but NEVER tried to run . 15 days , 360 hours , 2 different jails , 2 holding cells & 3 different pods. How am I out of jail and still not free ?”
This is the story of inmate 7768684

Tap tap click clack pit pat
The winds blowing hard
 cars zooming by 
all these noises keep me on edge 
always looking over my shoulder
Never knowing if they’re coming
 silver I once admired remind me of  blues an oranges
click clat tip tap 
that’s the sound of me walking in shackles 
pit pat pit pat 
That’s the  sound of me getting strip searched 
Squat and cough
 that’s me being degraded 
I went from free as a bird 
To a caged  animal
 went from a citizen to an inmate
 from holding my head high to 
face down and follow this wall
I was denied clothes for days 
Because I came in a skimpy romper 
I was quite a show 

I eventually was and moved to a room where I could stretch my arms out and touch both walls
 I then said” excuse me CO can I talk to a psych nurse “
as I read the paper they gave us 
you know for inmates
 it clearly says I have the right to talk to someone even if Im even if I’m just a number
 The response I got was “ Why ? All they are going to do is tell you think positive and give you a puzzle .”
72 hours later BOOM 
I’m under my bunk bed 
shirt wrapped around my neck  hyperventilating & vomiting on myself 
Almost choking 
guess who comes with a clipboard and questions 
A PYSCH nurse.
Having broken a law I deserved punishment, I didn’t feel human anymore 
They broke me and this time I couldn’t put my pieces together 
I am inmate 7768684 this is my story