Inner Thoughts

Thoughts of a criminal, a distraught individual

who cynical, but taught to live civil and biblical

diminishable in my presence, dead on the inside

In critical need of a resurrection, more enemies than allies

who despise your self being, deprive your self from freeing

eyes and ears to god, but only hear demons screaming

releasing a side of me, that’s better left inside of me

keeping me from achieving what I stride to be, who I try to be

please somebody provide a guide to me..

lead me in the right direction, too many of my wrongs need corrections

my life long from perfection, from myself I need protection

I plead for affection, but proceed to receive hate, guilt, and rejection

from when I was a kid into adolescent, I learned my lessons the hard way

world so beautiful but all my views in a charred grey

they say whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger

but I don’t know if my soul can take this much longer, im done