Inside Me

In the twisted corners of my mind,
Dark thoughts and secrets you will find.

Thoughts of blood and death and pain,
Thunder, lightening and endless rain.

Secrets of my hidden sorrow,
My wish of no tomorrow.

My hopeless hope of this to end,
Trying to fix what will not mend.

In the intricate vessels around my heart,
Doubts and fears will tear me apart.

Doubts of my present and future choices,
That expectant note in my parents voices.

Their hopeless hope that I will make them proud,
My fear of screaming my fears out loud.

Fear of their reactions,
If they knew my shameful actions.

Fear of being pushed away,
Leaves my thoughts in my mind to stay.

Not fearing,
My nearing,
Death,
But fearing,
Having to take,
Another,
Breath.

In the deepest places of my soul,
You will find the things that make me whole.

Love and laughter and loyal friends,
My hopeful hope this happiness never ends.

Uplifting music and crazy dancing,
Mocking ourselves for our playful prancing.

Making memories on the hood of your car
Wishing a wish on a shooting star.

No regrets,
Or doubts,
Or fears,
No blood,
Or death,
Or tears.

Hopeful hope that our souls live on,
Thankful thanks for making me strong.