Internal Warfear

If you want to know the real me
beneath all my layers of  bull shit
bring lots of corrosive material
to penetrate this hard façade I wear

For once you go deep inside
at my core you will find
a swirling sea of negativity
harboring a pessimistic nature        

All these bitter qualities I despise
and struggle so hard to suppress

Because that is not the guy I want to be

So I battle with myself to emit positivity

Even though I don’t in any way believe  
this fake image I project to the world

Though I do keep hope alive in my heart
for a cease fire to end this war within me