Invisible Home

I have been invisible for a decade, 
Stuck in the same four walls everyday.
Waiting to be heard or seen. 
You no longer see me, I am just see through. Am I just a figment of imagination?
I want you to see me, I want the weight of my words to be felt. 
I no longer want to invisible 
It’s tiring, suffering
I’m screaming, lose control and that’s the only time I’m seen. 
I’m seen when my emotions get the best of me
I’m seen at my worst 
Why can’t I be loved at my best?
My patience is worn thin 
Feels like I have nothing in me but anger, rage and resentment
Sometimes I wonder what will it take to finally be visible? 
How far do I have to push something for you to realize I’m suffering inside 
I’d be willing to put it all on the line but then I question would you even be there to catch me if I fell?
Do you even know I feel invisible in our home?