Is this the end

(READY TO LET GO )
It seems suicide is the only option that  I have left now
I've tried so hard to move forward in life just can't figure out how
The struggle is real and people they just don't care,
They tell you they love you but are they ever really there,
The wounds are just to deep from this life that I live
I've done the best that I could and have given all that i could give.
People disagree and say it's the easy way out, 
That's easy to say when your not yourself fighting in this bout, 
Coming so close to many times to count now on achieving my dreams, 
Yet none of it is real nothing is as it seems,
So why keep fighting a battle I've been destined to loose, 
Live with the pain or be freed how does one choose,
This is my dilemma that I face now at this time,
I can't ask for help they say im just crying or whine,
They don't live my life of face the things that I do,
They can't see the difference between what is fake and what is true, 
My soul is so tiered from this fight that I am in, I know longer wish to swing. just ready to let death finally take the win!!!!
                         David Stafford