IT

I just can't make it,
I follow the recipe but it always comes out wrong.
I just can't find it,
I've looked within and around but it's not there.
I just can't reach it,
It's an arm's reach away and yet...

I just can't take it,
I'm tired of searching down the same road for it.
I just can't understand it,
Why don't I have it? So many questions 
I just can't believe it 
"How do they have it and I don't?"
I just can't stand it,
It's a repetition of an incomplete circle.

I just can't blame it,
In truth it's me who's at fault.
I just can't leave it,
It will be my destination until I have arrived.
I just can't allow it,
I must not let myself be defeated by it.

I know I'll find it. It's everywhere.

What is it? It's a secret.