It Is a Game

Confined in suffocation
Resisting the urge to scream
Pushing the rising panic
Deep into a rare space
I feel like I am dead but alive
LIke I am monitoring my thoughts
As if this is a play 
Or a B movie
The plot in even predictable
I shake my head at every turn
At every plot twist I 've learned
This is a game
A huge masterfully created 
Beautiful and wonderful
Terrifying and Disgusting
Game
By whom for whom?
I cannot speculate
I sense a great truth hidden
In plain sight
I perceive that all the wisdom
IS ignorance compared to
One iota of understanding
that this is a game
I feel locked out of heaven
Stuck in a  multi level game
With no clues