It's Dark In Here

It becomes dark so so dark I can no longer love and I can't rise above my mind is crippling unless it's medicated even then I feel dead my life is pointless it has no meaning if I can't love myself how can someone else it's dark in this world of mine that know one gets to see but me I hide it from everyone it's to sad to release no one else could take this on it takes all my strength not to break down even though it feels like I'm about to drown in sorrow only hoping for tomorrow just living on time god let me borrow but tomorrow never comes only darker days to the point it's all a haze the only thing that helps is to blaze I have to numb it or I will never come back from it