Just An Idea

I chased after the past desperately,
Running barefoot on the concrete
Until my feet bled and blistered
After ideas fluttering in the wind like butterflies.

So precariously I reached, 
Stretching and grabbing unsuccessfully 
Until my arms ached and sweat poured 
Dripping from my forehead forming puddles on my shirt.

Finally I saw a dead end coming,
Humming with delight as I thought 
This is my chance to finally grasp
What should have always been mine.

I chased them down the ally,
Slowing as the wall appeared 
And just as my feet came to stand still
The ideas dropped to the floor like leaves.

So I scooped them up with great care,
Being cautious of my shaking hands
Not to use too tight a grip 
Yet not too gently as to let them slip through my fingers.

Finally I had what was rightfully mine,
Reminiscing on the time spent running 
So hard so fast and so long for
Now my swollen feet could finally rest.

I heard a car door slam,
Turning my head I saw a young girl walking
Slowly towards me
With her hands by her side.

So I smiled politely,
Nodding my head in hello
And clasping both hands over my ideas
Went to leave.

Finally my ideas would be ideas no longer,
Transforming into a reality
We would be together 
And all would be as it should be.

I walked past the girl,
Brushing shoulders lightly with her
But not minding 
For I was far too caught up in the moment.

So caught up I didn't notice,
Laughing when she nudged me slightly harder
For a second time
And knocked my ideas from my hands.

Finally, i thought, 
Nothing could prevent my future
With the man I love 
And these ideas we would bring to life. 

I went to pick my ideas up,
Rushing she grabbed them with one hand
And in an instant there you were
In all your glory.

So I took a few steps back,
Feeling both elated and concerned
At how she had brought you out of your shell
With just one touch.

Finally I had the man I loved in front of me,
Smiling eyes and beating heart
That was meant for me
Yet was for another.

The ideas I had chased for so long,
On foot down every rough turf for the last year
Had turned away with a woman
Who got a taxi ride to spend a few minutes. 

And I realised that is all you ever truly were and all you ever will be... Just an idea.