A Letter To My Mother

A Letter To My Mother

You gave me life, and there's nothing in the world I can give you to amount to that.
You smiled no matter how hard things got for us; you promised everything would always be okay.
Even when I turned to the streets you kept your praying arms around me.
I know it wasn't easy raising a misguided teenager like me, but you did it and you didn't complain.
I'm sorry for all the pain and stress I put you through; I'll spend the rest of my life trying to right the wrongs I've done but only if you allow me to.
I love you and I'm sorry for every hateful word I've ever said to you.
I can't undo the damage I've caused on your heart; but I'm trying my best to help it heal.
I'm trying to let my love be the coco butter, so there will be no ugly scars.
I can't live without you in my life; without your love I'd be lost.
Without your prayers I wouldn't have a soul; the devil would have had it by now.
I've imagined life without you and my heart stopped; I couldn't even breath.
I look back over the years and I cry; every time I told you "I hate you" you told me "I love you".
You prayed every night and day that God would bring me home and keep me safe.
Well guess what mama, your prayers were answered.
Now that I'm here let me make things right.
I constantly call not to worry you but to show you that I don't want to live another day without you.
You've taken care of me; please let me take care of you.
Not because I'm trying to repay you; but because that's what God has laid on my heart.
You don't know this but I cry every night because I regret the things I've done.
Mama please forgive me; let me make things right.