Life After You...

A road less travelled is where I'll unravel, I'll bare my heart without you here,
I'm so scared of moving forward, I can't remember a life without you dear,
I'm wanting time to stand still or at least go back before you became ill,
I know you're in heaven, I want to be with you, I wish there was a magic pill.

What will I do, without you wandering around our home,
It feels so big and empty, I just feel so lost and alone,
Looking through bills, I don't even know where to start,
I just want to sleep, there's a crushing ache in my heart.

You were my first love, my schoolyard romance,
You were my husband, I chose you, for my first dance,
I would give anything to feel your beautiful soul again,
I'm just so lost in this big wide world, I need to feel without pain.

I can't lay down in the double bed, I just see an empty pillow where you'd rest your head,
I can't go to the park where we'd feed the ducks, I've not got you there to share the loaf of bread,
Our trips to the caravan, playing with our lovely grandchildren, is what I miss the most, 
As the cold wind blew and night became dark, it's in those moments you held me so close.

I weep uncontrollable because I'm without your loving arms around me,
There's times I speak and then turn to you, then I realize, you can't be seen,
I try to open the old tin of roses, filled with photo's of the time we were free,
Everytime I open the lid, I breakdown and close it, I can hardly breathe.

To hang the washing on the line, you're not there to pass me the pegs,
To feel your heartbeat once more, every night on the settee, I pray and beg,
Life without you, I just don't want to live, every day is just a living hell,
Life without you, I've got nothing to give, all my stories, with nobody to tell.

Life without you, is not a life,
A life without you, is not mine...