LIFE isnt fair

The people Ive loved are the people who have left me,
Left me to battle this cruel world by myself,
Life is not fair,life is a battle feild,
In order to survive you must be both physicaly n mentally strong,
Showing weekness will enevidably distroy you,
There are many things in life that dont make sence,
why do bad things happen, I dont know,
Some say everything happens for a reason ,
Life for me seems cursed
its as if god or whatevers up there is punishing me,
Like I am there main target one punch after the other,
They want to break me down n watch me suffer,
I wounder to myself ,what did I do to deserve such pain ,
its like im a magnet twords bad things n pain it kills me inside n out
I feel i am slowly dieing, somedays I dont want to be alive Id rather be in the clouds,
I would feel no pain,
feel no sadness,
I would finally join my little girl and my family that have all left me here
All alone,
And here i am standing proud but alone,