Life Lullaby Being Fatherless Wondering Why

Hey daddy did you even love me.
Are you even sorry for losing me.
I spent everyday with no one to call dad.
I carried on through life always so suicidally sad. 
And I was all alone in the place called my home.
All because you have forever been gone.
When people used to notice me.
They'd look at me then my family.
All because they were white of colour.
I was approached with questions like am I adopted by my own Mother!.
I was born of brown and never did I fit in.
Thats when I questioned why I even existed.
They always only picked on just me.
From when I was just an infant until now; I'm nineteen.
Why was I put through all of this heart ache. 
I grew up an emotional wreck believing I’m a mistake.
That always lead me to the depth of my pain.
When all I ever wished for was for it to all go away.