Life's Ups and Downs

They told me you were sick and had changed. You were not the person you  were before. They said they had lost you. All of you. Yet you were still  your sweet self. I didn't know you then. All I know is now. I liked  you as soon as I saw you. You were funny, witty and so kind. You  didn't know me had never met me before but you loved me for who I was and you  were never afraid to say it.

In recent weeks your condition had deteriorated and gotten to the point  that you were no longer able to work. The last time I saw you I could  not believe my eyes I had not seen you for a week and when I did you  appeared  as someone who had been ill for many years. It made me question myself  as  to what was going on with you. Were you just ill or was there something  else going on? How could one week of neglect appear to the onlooker as  years of sickness?  I could tell you were so happy to see me. You tried desperately to pack everything that had gone on in your life for that week into one  long sentence. I could see you were barely succeeding you seemed overwhelmed. I tried to help you. I told you to take it easy, take a deep breath and  relax. For the most part you tried to. You looked nervous,jumpy,  stressed  and distressed and a bit unkept.

I had to try hard to contain myself  no  way was I going to allow myself to breakdown in front of you I had to be strong; for you for both of us. I couldn't stand to see you like this. I  had to excuse my self. Every time I looked at you it was as if my chest  was closing in on my heart. I needed to breathe. I walked away for a  minute and tears started flowing down my face it was too much to bear.   As I  walked away you came to me one last time to tell me you had to go.  You looked so lost so alone I wished I could help.

Go my friend and as you  do I will you to be brave, bold and strong!