Liked & Lost

Waves upon waves crashing down upon me.
A lighthouse in the distant that I try to see.
The thunder is catching up to me.
Lost in the mist….
Lost in the dark…
Never knowing if I will succumb.
To the deathly cold waves below.
As I sink… slowly to the bottom.
There a light shining on me.
A gently breath that surrounds me.
I think this may be my saving grace.
Your warm presence shrouds me.
I feel like I can breathe.
You dust me off.
And dry my sorrows.
You jumpstart my heart.
And I begin to live once again.
I begin to dream.
I begin to love.
I begin to feel wanted.
Needed.
And desired….
But then suddenly….
Like that frightful dream I was lost at sea.
You let go.
You stopped.
You ignored me.
I became a distant thought.
I became irrelevant.
I became unwanted.
Just like the passing of the moon.
You disappeared.
You went away from me.
I’m here wondering.
Whether it was me.
Was I not enough.?
Was I not adequate.?
Was I just too simple and plain.?
Did I not meet your requirements.?
I feel used and thrown away.
I feel like I am the issue.
The rose thorn in the way.
The cloud that blocks the sun.
And then at last….
Here I am once again.
Torn to shredded pieces.
Sinking in the dark.
Sinking in the waves.
The pain brought back once again.
The pain we all dread to feel.
The pain that hurts like needles to the heart.
What’s this pain you may ask.
It’s very simple really.
This hurt, this pain.
I’m afraid it’s called…..
HEARTBREAK……………  !!!!!!!!!