Limbo All Expectations

When it rains it pours I'm bored feeding my brain 
stems caps n spores
Robbing drug stores
 refilling prescriptions 
fulfilling my pill addiction 
fueling the garbage fire in my soul
  trying to fill my black hearts hole is taking a toll 
Selfish
 self destructive 
self absorbed 
absent minded monstrosity
 unofficially committed to my flimsy philosophy
 inconsistent and unpredictable outbursts escaping my mouth first 
escalating into physical violence 
violating personal space
 vandalizing possessions and property intentionally offending innocent victims of proximity
 insulting your sensitivities
 assaulting your senses with impurities psycho smiling gleefully
 inner conflicts exist when the voices don't agree with me
 demons whisper
 relentless wishing for me to do their bidding
 breaking me down 
what remains of my sanity keeps on slipping
 Satans satin voice seduces me in seconds hypnotized by horrible lies
 promises of paradise
Too good to be true
How can I love and hate you
I don't know neither
Huffing ether
Smoking reefer
Getting blown like a speaker
Dysfunctional tweaker
Dizzy spinning then spun out 
Critical thinking 
Strobe light blinking
Someday it'll sink in
Till then I'm doing more than less more or less
Smoking tall trees
Blowing ozs
Owning 
You owe me 
Truth unfolding
 my personal computer never requires updates
Taking a shit
Downloading
Digitally enhanced hallucinations 
Getting used to cruising spaceships
My bad I spaced it
Pardon me for my chronic smoking condition
Passing blunts to cunts 
God gave me permission
I got paper work and permits
Negotiations with nonprofit organizations
Disorganized corporation
Deserves being deceived
Victimless crimes are all I commit
Armageddon
Fuckin end of times
If I pass out I'll be pissed I missed it